I Was Thinking...

i was thinking no matter how sad i am...those sad wont heal me at all
i was thinking no matter how hard i'm thinking...thing wont be true for sure
i was thinking no matter how eager i'm searching...it wont appear infront me
i was thinking no matter how i'm pray...does my pray be answered?
i was thinking no matter how tired i am...does my hardwork paid?
i was thinking no matter how i'm smile...does my heart smile too?
i was thinking no matter how i'm concern...does my concern be known?
i was thinking...what kind of life i'm facing now?...seem enjoyment are fading away along with those memories...
i just stay in silent...silent in everything..
i wish...
should i make a wishes?
no more wishes..my broken heart does not believe in wish anymore.

it's hard to wait around for something
               you know might never happen
but it's even harder to give up
              when you know it's everything you want.