my mood kinda swing today...seem i didnt interested in anything except spend my time reading a novel "Daddy Long Legs"...acctly is a english novel but i prefer to read in korean version which is more touching to be compared with the original version, as i has watched the movie before Ha Ji Won as Young Mi and Jung Hoon as Joon Ho, so as a first impression..i prefer korean rather than english.
Today is plain....so plain.....what a blue. As i able to make someone i hate read what she didnt know that i was curse her directly...good she didnt understand korean, baka onna!. Damn i'm not feeling well today..my cough getting worse...dfficult to breathe...i was nearly black off today...lucky able to get some rest.
i miss him so much, as i want to tell him everything about what was happend...as we had done before this, he the one deeply understand what was i suffering...but he not able to be as before...as a good listener, as a good supporter, as a good advisor, as a good entertanier, as a good heart braker too...he everything...good and bad..he the one. okay fine now..my feeling getting even bad...really bad...argh! i should forget it! as i could die while i'm still young. what would happen if N.. A......Bt. A.... A... is ...... no one care. heh..pathetic.
My mind. my soul, my body communicate to each other...as a good listener to my self..without reveal what was in my mind, my heart and my physical. i'm tired. one question out...other answer received, one heart to heart try to achieve...other respon receive, what a stupid reaction.
lonely...what should i do? why does everyone treat me as a rubbish? i supposed to be like Joon Ho...slowly loosing my memory...so i wont held a grudge to everyone.
